|Thursday, December 25th, 2008|
|ho ho ho
Wishing a merry fill-in-the-blank to everyone :D
I myself enjoyed a very nice Christmas Eve at my aunts last night and today am relaxing at home. Still recovering from all the yummies and am stoked by my prezzies :D I'm most excited about a Victoria's Secret bra that my sister got for me. It is the best fitting most awesome bra I've ever owned, and it went extinct! I bought one last spring in a pale pink and by the time I decided I needed to stock up on it, it was gone. Victoria's Secret altered the bra so it no longer fit me correctly. But my sister found me that extinct version in black! I was shocked and couldn't be happier :D My mom went all out too, wow :)
|Thursday, November 27th, 2008|
Just wanted to wish everyone a happy thanksgiving. I'm home for the holiday this year for the first time in two years I believe, so that feels nice. I wasn't one for holiday spirit for a long time until I spent a few away from family. Though my mom gets stressed over holidays, which makes it less pleasant, I'm thankful to be home. And thankful for all you that are my friends <3 And thankful for stuffing, I <3 stuffing :D Time to eat!
|Tuesday, November 18th, 2008|
Curious to know who's going to the Cruxshadows, Bella Morte, etc... show tonight at hvn... Hope to see a lot of faces I know :)
|Monday, November 3rd, 2008|
|Tuesday, October 28th, 2008|
|Is anyone going to hvn halloween tonight?
Weathers shady and I don't know if I should go or not. I'm feeling emo today too and I don't know if I should try to go be around people and maybe have fun or stay home and wallow in my misery, lol :/ But seriously, I'm feeling pretty gloomy :(
|Saturday, September 27th, 2008|
They say a picture is worth a thousand words.
Post a picture in my comments of what you think describes me when you think about who I am.
Give no written explanation though. Just an image.
|Wednesday, October 3rd, 2007|
|Thursday, September 20th, 2007|
|New shiny laptop! Squeeeee!!!
This post is brought to you from my NEW LAPTOP!!! Yay! It arrived this morning but I had to run and was just dying all day to get back to the house to set it up but I had a long day. So I'm finally using it now. I've been on it for over three hours. It looks like it has about 4.5 hours of battery life. Perfect! The laptop I had bought a while ago only had two hours on it after the sales guy told me it had four so I returned it and have been without a laptop since. I also got a media bay battery so I can add another couple hours to that because I heard the battery on this model laptop starts losing its time after a few months and usually dies within a year. So I may be looking at replacing batteries often but otherwise I love it!!! Oh the joy! I am no longer confined to the computer labs and I believe I have wireless at the house too!
Once I get aol installed on here I'll be more available for instant messaging. I don't sign onto aim express too often from Framingham. And my sister is usually on my account at home so if I don't respond to a message it may be that my sister is on my name. Sorry if thats confusing but we usually keep the pc at home on one name because that computer is so slow it's just more convenient not to switch between accounts. Soon I'll be using that name from here too if I can so it will be more likely that I'll answer a message. I should probably just create another name for here but I don't want too because I'm attached to it so email me if it's anything important.
|Wednesday, September 5th, 2007|
|Another school post
Well I'm all moved in. I moved in Monday and it was not terribly bad. I really let myself get terribly stressed over it this year but it ended up a good move. I already noticed some things I've forgotten but I have everything that I need which is great.
And now some updates on my life since a few things have changed. I need to take classes at Framingham for another year. I was hoping this would be my last semester but one of the classes I need for my major that need to be taken here got canceled so I need to take it in the spring. I'm pretty upset about it but I've come to accept it as there is really nothing I can do to change it other than quit which I am not going to do after all this work. I was thinking of possibly commuting in the spring for the class since it would only be two days a week, but it would be so many bus transfers that it would be very tedious and a taxi may need to be involved as well and if you add that into the picture it may not save me enough money to make it worth it. I'll make a final decision when I see what time the class will be offered but most likely I'll be living here for the year.
I'm not doing Rocky anymore for the time being. I'm taking a break for at least the fall. It was a very hard decision to make but I've needed to take a break for a long time and now I'm relieved to have less to worry about. I'd be lying if I said that it hasn't been difficult doing Rocky commuting from here. When I started I thought it would be ok, but over time it's been hard.
My summer overall was not good. Lots of stress over various things finally escalated into first a depression and then a breakdown at the beginning of August. I hit a really low point where I could barely even function anymore. It was also at this point that I decided to take a hiatus from Rocky. I want to thank the people who helped me during this time emotionally and helped me get my finances together. My biggest cause of stress was not having enough money to be here this year but things came though.
So I'm back in Framingham... and I still hate it here... but I'm trying damn hard to feel grateful that I am here. I just need to get though this last year and I'm never looking back.
One of my friends told me about a small labyrinth behind a church near the school and we went there this evening. It was a path in a circle marked off by stones. I liked it and went around it a few times. I had a hard time trying to meditate or relax at first as I've been so stressed lately but by the end I was at least feeling hopeful and thinking good thoughts. I was thinking about the things that make me happy by the end. I also realized that all those things are back home which is why I'm unhappy here. Not that I didn't know that already but it just became clear again. Oh well. One of the things that get me though is going home for the occasional weekend and this weekend I'm planning on coming home :) I did just move in but I need to get myself used to being here again after the summer. I have fridays off so I shoud be home by Thursday or Friday night depending what day I leave. I also don't have class till 2:30 on Mondays so I really get a nice long weekend.
And I finally ordered a laptop so now I'll have internet access from home rather than having to use the school's computers so I may start posting here more but probably mostly boring stuff because my life is not terribly eventful here. I did do a few new things this summer though. I went to the contra dance in Greenfield with Michael which was a great time. Went to a goth night at a club in Boston with Brian that was amazing and hopefully I'll be doing this monthly if Brian continues to go and picks me up along the way. There is also a great new place in Hartford that I went to with Jason.
I start classes tomorrow and am getting sleepy so g'night all. Wish me a good year!
|Tuesday, August 14th, 2007|
|I need help with this
I was wondering if someone computer literate could please help me with this if you know what it means. I need to order a laptop for school and it has a few features that let you customize it. I'd like to know what the difference is between these two options in terms of what they do and if the $50 extra is worth it. Latitude D630
Intel® Core™ 2 Duo T7100 (1.80GHz) 2M L2 Cache, 800MHz Dual Core
Intel® Core™ 2 Duo T7100 (1.80GHz) 2M L2 Cache, 800MHz Dual Core [Included in Price]
Intel® Core™ 2 Duo T7300 (2.00GHz) 4M L2 Cache, 800MHz Dual Core [add $50.01]
In reference here is the link to the page, though this is the only feature without a description: http://premierconfigure.us.dell.com/dellstore/config.aspx?cs=RC980912&oc=rcRC980912-1855819
|Sunday, July 8th, 2007|
We had a guest at our house today who was visiting our home for the first time. He made his entrance though the back yard where there are something like seven cats residing. He then made his way into the house where he saw two kittens and a dog. Lastly he ended up in our basement where he was greeted by yet another cat :D
|Wednesday, May 16th, 2007|
|I just got the weirdest fortune ever
Ignore previous cookie.
C'mon, I can't remember what the previous cookie said, even though I just had it a few hours ago. But how can one be expected to remember these things when most of the time they are lame. I miss actual fortunes!
Brought to you by an all nighter night.
|Tuesday, May 8th, 2007|
|I haven't been on here much...
but I thought I'd do a brief real update...
Semester almost over. I should be moving my things back in two weeks.
Still doing Rocky although not as much as I used too. In rotation as Frank the few times I'm on. The last two times I was up though were amusing to say the least. One week my wig fell off during my biggest scene (Sweet T)! (I'd forgotten to pin the wig to my hair). That would have to be my most embarrassing Rocky moment on record, though it was amusing to others :) And the last show... in the scene where Frank whips Riff I accidentally caught the whip around Brad's neck who was in back of me!
I'm doing the calendar again. Miss February 2008 :D I know exactly how I want to be shot and it's gonna be Hot!
My cat Pempoosh had two kittens a little over a month ago. They are as different as can be and it's just amazing watching them and already seeing their personalities. One of them we named Kaya and the other we just haven't been able to come up with a good name for yet. We keep on calling her nosek, which is Polish for nose or nosey (she has a spot on her nose), but it sounds like a boys name :/ Puppy is crazy about them although she doesn't quite know how to control her excitement and ends up knocking them over with her nose all the time. They are definitely the excitement in our life right now.
And I think that's all I feel like saying for now. See you all soon!
|Tuesday, March 13th, 2007|
|Wednesday, February 28th, 2007|
|so long ago
I fell in the shower last night. And last Friday I slipped on black ice in the driveway and have a huge bruise on my elbow from that. Needless to say I am being very careful when carrying scissors :) Huge due date on an outfit next Wednesday is keeping me busy. Wish me luck! So many things on it I am making for the first time. It's exciting but I'm running out of help time and a lot of it I may have to figure out on my own which is always on some level of hell. I really don't like the color of the fabric. I think it is too bright for me, but I needed a particular material and it is the best I could find in the whole greater Boston area. Come to think of it western Mass as well.
I think I may have gotten my appetite back too. I haven't been able to eat much the last few days and I really need the energy. Got three tops for under seven bucks at the Salvy yesterday. I desperately need new shoes but I hate shoe shopping. Every time I go to the mall I end up shopping for lingerie. But if I get myself to a shoe store I'm probably going to end up looking for stripper boots which is not what I need right now, but I guess as long as the tape is still holding mine together they're wearable.
All the ground was sparkly when I walked home yesterday... or maybe it was the night before? Time feels so strange sometimes. But it was so beautiful and I felt joyous :)
Spring break around the corner! March 9th. I will be at Haven that week. Hope to see many of you there as my next outing won't be till summer. Current Mood: sleepy
|Sunday, February 25th, 2007|
|brief update on life I suppose
Things with school are alright. Not home this semester much so far. Made a few new friends. Birthday coming up soon.
Emotionally I feel... confused...
I think I realized yesterday that I haven't felt in a while. I've lost depth and wonder in day to day living. I need to wake up. I feel myself buried under layers of... ? I need to reconnect... Need to remember what the things are that make me feel alive as well as find new things.
Went treasure hunting in Boston yesterday, or Cambridge I suppose. Not actually treasure hunting, although what I was looking for was pretty important and I found it so I feel pretty good :)
I was browsing though old journal entries and I realize... I think parts of me have changed... I think to what I wanted to be... or what I thought I wanted to be... and now... I want to go back, maybe? I miss me from last year... and the year before that. I was much more naive and I think I miss that. Do those that know me well think I've changed?
|Wednesday, February 14th, 2007|
Hope everyone had a good Valentine's Day... at least not depressing.
Love to all! :)
|Friday, January 12th, 2007|
After you die...
After death, you will exist in heaven. Everything and everyone you love will constantly surround you for all of eternity. You lucky scoundrel.
Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com
|Tuesday, January 2nd, 2007|
Anyone going to Haven tonight? I haven't been since July, or maybe even June, and am thinking of going.
Sorry for the lack of posts but I just haven't feel like it and my life has not been very eventful. I'm home and on vacation though. Start classes on the 24th so I want to see people while I'm home and not overwhelmed with school work. Playing Magenta and Trixie this Saturday 1/6. Hope to post a little more while I'm home. Happy new year everyone.
|Saturday, December 16th, 2006|
|a bit of a problem
We have a cat, who was born and lived in our back yard for the first few months of her life. She is a very friendly cat who was not scared of us and often would wander into our house. We have since "taken her in" since she now spends most of her time indoors with us. Problem is my mom refused to get her a litter box for a long time insisting she can hold it in and be let out like our dog. Now that she decided it's really time for a litter box the cat doesn't understand what it is. She thinks it's a bed and will sleep in it. What she does want to use for a litter is our plant and will dig out the soil. How can I undo this mess? Suggestions? We are planning on moving the plant but her other alternate is the sink.
Picture of my cat this past summer btw. I don't think many of you have seen her. I introduce Pempoosh :)